I had a really intense therapy appointment today and I will see her next Friday as well.
This appointment showed me how much I have fallen into depression, yet again. I don’t want to do anything. My self care has gone down the shower. I can’t really concentrate on reading. I have a constant headache. I want to sleep ALL THE TIME. My appetite is all over the place, mostly gone. I am crying. Thoughts of total unworthiness has taken over!
I did ask about this new therapy called Low Field Magnetic Stimulation and she had heard of it but told me to talk to the med NP about it so I will. It is based here in Boston and I am intrigued.
So when I see the med NP in two weeks, I am going to request all new medicine. It is time to give something a try. My current regime of Prozac and Wellbutrin is just not cutting it anymore.
So the shadow is stalking me again and it is all over the place. That is what is going on with me.
I think I need to reinstate my Happy Things post and inject some of my Jennifer appeal into this blog. Small changes will hopefully be coming soon. With depression, things take time, unfortunately.