Thursday, July 10, 2014
How to Deal With Depression and Anxiety During Blogher 2014
I am going to my 4th Blogger in two weeks. Even after 4 years, it is overwhelming. In situations where I know no one, I tend to revert to my introverted side and being around hundreds of women and some men that I have never met or read is wicked scary to me.
I try to be "up" in new situations but being "up" is physically and mentally exhausting. It takes a lot of internal guts for me to go up to someone that I do not know and say "Hello". All of the "Will they like me?" or "What if they hate my blog?" or "How the hell am I going to describe my blog" gets shoved down and the welcoming smiling friendly gregarious (I was called that recently) comes out.
Here is how I deal with it.
1. Coping mechanisms will be kept handy. I will have a book (maybe two or three) with me. If it gets to be too much, I will find a quiet corner and read for a bit. I used to retreat to the Serenity Suite but that is not an option.
2. Recite the mantra in my head. "I am good enough" over and over until I start to believe it.
3.Don't be afraid to show your true feelings. I lost my phone at the San Diego Blogher. I was dealing with family issues and I totally broke down. I was crying. People stopped to help me. They even got AT&T to donate a phone until I could replace mine. They were awesome and they helped me. I eventually found my phone through Twitter. People will be there for you.
As someone who has been really struggling lately. I am totally looking forward to the medication appointment I have next week. I am going to be true to myself. I am not perfect and I know I can handle it if I get anxious and depressed.
I will be around just look for the tall freckled red head with a bit of a Boston accent.