Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Week 1

I am surviving unemployment, so far. I attended a sort of orientation to the one stop job center today. I will probably meet with a job coach next week.

The only thing I am worried about is health insurance. My cobra insurance will be almost $500 a month and that is just too much. The state here requires you have health insurance or you get fined. I am hoping to qualify for some sort of state insurance or help paying my fee. It is just too much.

I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. Trying to find a job and stay up emotionally during this if getting to me. This afternoon is quiet for me and I am totally coming down emotionally.  Trying to be up, when you just really want to be sort of neutral takes a lot of energy.

On the plus side, my new friend (not sure what to call him) let me use his air conditioner and I am thinking, why did I wait so long to get one? At least now, I am sleeping in air conditioned comfort. That is a big positive right now.

I will be posting regularly again. I need this blog. Writing is therapeutic.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Hi There

Where have I been?

Well busy sort of.

I have begun to see someone. Yes, me. I have. He is really nice and we have a lot in common and he makes me laugh, a lot.

I started to date him about a month ago.

He googled my blog so he has read ALL about me and has not been scared away. So if you are reading this, hello.

Wednesday is my last day at work. It can not come soon enough.

Most of the time, I have been feeling good. Sometimes it is a rollercoaster type of thing. Up and down, but more up.  I am a bit worried about my health insurance since cobra is very expensive. I am going to try to on insurance through Massachusetts so I can still keep with with my therapy.

How have you been?

Friday, July 5, 2013

6 Blogging Years!

Have I really been writing for 6 years?


Yep. I started on July 5, 2008.

I think I have changed yet I am the same. 

I have not lost my shadow but I am fighting it better. I have great friends and support. I am better able to say that yes, if I spend a lot of time alone, the demons come out. 

Will I be doing this 6 years from now? I have no idea.

I am still a little blog in the sea of the internet. 

I sort of like it that way. 

I saw my therapist the other day. She was concerned about the amount of time that I will be spending alone after the 24th.  I am a little concerned myself. I may spend some time in coffee shops to do job searching or in my beloved library. 

If you are here in the states, hopefully you had a safe and happy 4th of July.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Fitbit Excitement

Someone stole my blogging mojo and I am trying to get it back. I have been spending a lot of time alone and well, turning on the computer has been too much.

I hope to remedy that. I will probably talk about my job search some since that is coming up.

For now, I have a new toy. I bought myself a Fitbit Flex. What is a Fitbit Flex?


The Flex is a bracelet that you wear that computes your steps, your sleep and if you want your food intake. If you tap on it, the lights will tell you how far you have gone to your goal. Five lights is the maximum you can get.

It sinks with a computer or a smartphone. Since I have a smartphone, I sink it to that often.


I have a goal of 10,000 steps a day. Some days I make it, some days I don’t. This is a screenshot from earlier in the day.

The computer dash board has some additional little tools that I find interesting.

active minutes

I love that it shows I had 40 very active minutes.

I am working on the simple goal of weighing less than I did the previous month. No crazy tracking. No freaking out. Just trying to move and make some good choices and not binge.

I am a bit worried about my impending job job loss and I am  hoping not to take my worries out with food, because it won’t get me a job or make me feel better.

This was $99 of my own money invested wisely, I think. I am sort of obsessed with the sleep function and getting the 10,000 steps per day. If I start to make 10,000, I will raise my goal to 11,000.