Tuesday, February 26, 2013

It Has Been A Year

Ever been told you are too passionate?

Not in a romantic sense but just care too much about something or can be vocal about an issue or a hobby?

I have. I am passionate about my job. I care whether something is done right. I care about my job. Co-workers said that I needed to be less passionate about my job. Just to get what needs to be done, done and let it go.

It will be tough. I don’t have the don’t care attitude of many of my co-workers. It is hard to let go. Why be passionate and care when it gets me no where at all with the company?

I have had a killer migraine for a few days, which includes ear aches and non-stop buzzing. Gah! I get so tired of it. I feel like I need to be stretched on a medieval stretching machine and then maybe my tired self will feel better.

I have to take care of myself.

Plus this week makes it a year since Mom died. She died on March 2, 2012. I miss her so much. Plus with the snow, getting down to the National Cemetery is pointless since the graves are flat and probably snow covered. I feel guilty for not visiting. I did not even get down at Christmas.

It is going to be a tough few days.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Letting the Past Rule Today

Have you seen this video?


I saw this at work and started to cry. If you have been reading this blog for any time, you may know that I am still struggling with the hurtful words and actions that plagued my childhood. Those feeling of being ugly, unlovable, worthless and generally not worth the air I breathe but yet I yet I struggle through each day. 

This spoke to me. I am almost 40 years old. When am I going to stop letting something from 30 years ago bother me? Why do I still believe it? How can I let go?

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Where Did She Go?

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Where did the girl in the photo go? Is she still in me?

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She is still in me somewhere.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Jen Reads: Snowed In

It snowed again last night. Perfect reading weather if you ask me.

What am I reading:

I am such a sucker for talking dogs and talking giant squirrels. What can I say, I am a big softie.  This series of a Druid immortal living in Tempe, Arizona has me laughing. I recommend it.

I love historical fiction based in the middle ages. This book has sucked me in and I am totally rooting for Llewelyn.

This is the last book that is out in the series and once I started to read the series, I had to read all of it. I have just started this.

I finished this book and I loved it. Sky lives with her adoptive mother. She was home schooled all her life but convinced her mother to let her go to the high school for her senior year. While at a store, she meets Dean Holder, a bad boy who spent a year away from school, and she is drawn to him.  He helps her uncover some serious problems with her life.

The book really handled some serious issues like abuse and forgotten memories well. As someone who has some serious struggles in that area of my life, I was drawn in and could not put my Kindle down.

This is the start of a new series and I can not wait to read more about Sky and Holder.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Facebook Thanks

Today on Facebook, I posted about how I was .0000001 away from having a nervous breakdown. This is nothing new. I tend to post obscure things about my mood on Facebook.  Whether it is moaning about the snow or talking how I am really struggling with depression that day, someone is usually there to comment and it makes me happy.

What did we do before Facebook and computers?

I don’t know but I am far more dependent on Facebook, blogs and all things social media than I should be. I think I could live without it but it might be hard!

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Snow Bound!

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I survived Nemo! I did lose power last night around 8 until around 1 pm today. I have been alone a little too long and once public transportation gets going, possibly tomorrow, I will make my escape for a bit. We got about 30 inches of snow here in Quincy.  I have not been outside, this is taken from my window.

I was nominated for a Liebster Award from Mary Fran. She asked that some questions be answered so here it it goes:

1.  If you could change one thing in your life what would it be?

I would have told someone what was happening to me as a kid. Other than that, I am ok.

2.  What is your favorite color?

Green! Green!

3.  If you could go on a vacation anywhere in the world...where would it be?  Why?

Oh right now, Bora Bora for sure!

4.  What is your favorite thing about your body?

My freckles!

5.  If you were shopping right now..what store/department would you be in?

Oh, clothing for sure. I love clothes.

6.  Favorite type of book to read?

Oh romance for sure – paranormal or historical. It was too cold to read earlier today.

7.  Longest distance you have ever ridden on a bike?

10 miles or what seemed like it.

8.  Glasses, contacts or perfect vision?

I wear both glasses and contacts, not at the same time though.  If I am not going anywhere, the glasses are on.

9.  Toenails...painted or au natural?

It is the winter, au natural. Why bother when you won’t see my toes until summer.

10.  Best thing about your life?

My freedom to do what I want, when I want, where I want…

11.  What kind of car do you drive?

2009 Ford Focus that I love a lot

Since I am such a wuss and I love the blogs, I love you all! You all get awards from me.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

What To Buy Before a Snow Apocalypse

You might have heard that there is a snow-apocalypse coming to New England? Jim Cantore from The Weather Channel is even in town. Whether or not tomorrow it actually happens, I went to the Hannaford supermarket here in Quincy, MA and well, I was surprised by what I saw.

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I live in the 18-24” area but given the storm hype, I am weary.  That “OMG! It is the Blizzard of 78 all over again!” mentality that drives people, including me to the store. I was a 4 year old during the storm and it was even engraved in my head.

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Who knew that Quincy-ites (not sure that is a word) are such tomato lovers that they must buy them before a blizzard? Maybe it is a scurvy thing.

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I know that having pancakes during the snow is a nice thing.

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I suppose we need to get some iron somehow and what better with a burger?

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Or perhaps some chicken?

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You can’t make French toast without the following ingredients:

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Bread!

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Eggs!

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Milk!

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Honey Nut Cheerios are wicked popular.

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Freschetta is a popular storm choice.

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Triscuits are obviously a necessity.

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You have to drink something. Maybe some wine, which I am fortified with of course but you can’t drink wine all day! And as you stand in line, don’t yell at your fellow line mates, bitch about that snow-apocalypse.

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Whether you hit the many supermarkets in the area, take your bread, eggs, milk and soda, and make some darn good French toast.

I will post an update during the storm because even thought I am a life long New Englander, one must take pictures of the snow.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Cats!

What cheers me up on cold winter days?

Pictures of cute animals. In fact, I have a whole Pinterest board with cute animals to look at when I get down but it is time I introduce the kitties.

Pumpkin is quite the lap cat.  She is also quite demanding, when it comes to paying attention to Pumpkin.

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Eli is still skittish but has come out and about. I have been able to rub his neck only twice. I am getting there, slowly.

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They are cautiously getting along. Now and then I hear a little altercation but for the most part, they are fine.

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Pumpkin was sniffing Eli’s lair, while Eli was watching and preparing to pounce.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Sick Day

Between shingles and the flu I have been sick a lot this winter. Today, I needed a mental health day. My stomach was a mess and I had a migraine from hell so I decided to hibernate today after taking some pain medicine. My migraine pain medicine totally knocks me out.

I have a much quieter week then last week. Hopefully, I can get caught up on blogging. I went to a Post Secret event on Friday night and I want to talk about that. I also had a party on Saturday that went well.

I have been feeling sort of blah this afternoon, which goes along with having a migraine.

Tomorrow is a new day.