Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Overwhelming

Unemployment is not agreeing with me. Today was my first day of actively looking for a job and it was totally overwhelming.

I have been home alone a lot. Too much. Today, the isolating fear of mine started to take over. Secret Sister came over and I didn’t even want her to visit. She handed me what she wanted to give me and walked away. I felt horrible. I did not go to Zumba tonight because I feeling down. I am just overwhelmed.

Thankfully, I am not alone all the time. Tomorrow, I am taking my computer and leaving to search. Sitting at home does me nothing good but let my mind wander into lands it should no.
Tomorrow will be a better day.

8 comments:

  1. Hi, Jen--I agree that leaving the house will help. I tend to do the same thing when I get overwhelmed--I want to isolate myself. And it's not good for me. Looking for work is a job in and of itself. Make sure to give yourself breaks and take it a step at a time. I'll be thinking of you. :-)

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  2. Hey - I've been unemployed for over five months now. The thing that helps me is to stick to normal routine; go to bed no later than 11pm, wake up around 8am --- make it a point to leave the house every day, even if just for a walk (I exercise more regularly now than when I was working, yay !) Sometimes I have to drag my butt out, but I will, even if it's to the library to read some magazines...
    Reading has been invaluable; I've always been a loner in terms of not having family & relatives, and during these past months I've read a lot from Eckart Tolle, and some books about meditation... learning to know myself and even enjoying the time alone at times.
    Hang in there :))

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  3. Yes there's always tomorrow my friend. Unemployment is definitely stressful but it's always temporary...just remember that and keep that in mind my friend.

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  4. I agree with Zella in keeping a schedule. It has always helped me stay in front of my anxiety. Good luck!

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  5. Good idea to leave your house......hope each day gets better for you.

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  6. That is good you did not give up- keep on trying to stay positive- your attitude can make all the difference.

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  7. I'm glad you know what does or doesn't work for you. Get out of the house and enjoy the weather.

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  8. Getting laid off is depressing. I remember how down it had me...does your state have a displaced worker's act that will pay for higher education classes? That's how I wound up starting my master's degree. Beware of taking the first job that comes along just because you're going stir crazy...try to hold out for something better. This is your opportunity to reinvent the wheel!

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