I made it to group tonight. Something about the snow and my birthday blahs and everything else that made it imperative that I go tonight.
I am glad I did.
I was asked what I thought recovery for me would look like and well, I envision recovery as this:
- I will be able to forgive myself.
- I will treat myself right and be healthy without thinking because it makes me feel better.
- Maybe I will get out of bed on 1 alarm in the morning
Forgiveness. What a hard word that is. I have such high expectations about myself. My expectations of others are not nearly as high. I do not forgive myself. In fact it is a trigger to lots of behaviors. That would be a huge thing for me to forgive myself.
If I could forgive myself, I think the living healthy part would slowly come into place. Maybe just maybe, I could get out of bed.
How do you envision recovery for yourself?
Look at the bracelet I got at the meeting tonight. I think it is a good reminder.
It says Nourish Your Mind, Nourish Your Body – MEDA