Sunday, November 18, 2012

A Mish Mash

I have had a weekend of ups and downs. This morning I had a hard time actually getting out of bed. I laid there and stared at the ceiling. Since I live alone, no one needed me. I  had no motivation to actually get out. After putting the blanket over my head for a while, I needed coffee and that constituted actually getting out of bed and so I did.

Here I sit at a Starbucks using their internet drinking a Caramel Spice Apple Cider. At least I am up and about, right?

I went out with friends last night to a Christmas Eve tree lighting at Faneuil Hall in Boston.


After the tree lighting I went  to get a few drinks with a good friend to the Bell in Hand in Boston. I used to go there a lot about 9 years ago and I have a hard time reconciling that yes, it has been 9 years since I was 30. I had a great time with my friend and I was talking to a 25 year old. The person was born when I was a freshman in high school! My friend thought I should have gotten his number but I could not do it, even though he was really handsome.

Is it so bad that I want someone near my own age? Who I can talk about certain things and they know what I am talking about?

I have been feeling more and more that I am meant to be alone yet I do not want to be but that it is inevitable. It is hard to explain.



The whole Hostess debacle in the news makes me sad and mad. Never mind that the American icon (no matter if it may be immortal and horrible for you) will most likely be gone but something like 18,500 people will be out of a job and the crooks that run Hostess got huge raises and expected their employees to make up for it. It makes me sick. I did however eat the Twinkies

I am reading a book that I can not put down that but it disturbs me on so many levels. It is called Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire. What is the line between an obsession and love? I will be writing more about this when I finish it and digest it a little.

How was your weekend?


  1. My weekend was pretty good, thanks for asking! Went to see a friend perform in community theater on Friday night. It was a blast. The Pats won today (by a huge margin) so that always caps the weekend off for me!

    You know, I was wondering - you seem very smart and like you have a lot of talents and gifts. Have you considered doing any volunteering? Perhaps reading to kids at the library, or Big Sisters, or who knows, anything else that may interest you? I bet there are tons of people who need you - you just haven't met them yet!

    Hey - how did you get your blog name on your tree picture? I like the way that looks. The picture itself is really nice too.

    1. I use windows live writer to blog and they have a photo feature that allows you to put a watermark. I think a lot of photo software does.

      I am going to look into volunteering.

  2. I'm glad you got out this weekend and did some enjoyable things.

    I would suggest that I don't think anyone is meant to be alone. Not everyone gets married, but everyone can have others in their lives for fun, support, connection. I am happy being married, but I don't think you have to be married to be happy.

    Sounds like an intriguing book. Will look forward to learning more.

    1. I know. I just have this overwhelming thought that I will be alone. I just can't shake the unlovable feeling.

  3. Great post. I agree with Tina, I don't think anyone is meant to be alone. BTW now I am craving Caramel Spice Apple Cider :)

    1. I am too, I want another :)


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