I got this list from the Warning Signs of Suicide from the Samaritans of Massachusetts site.
Verbal Signs"I want to kill myself." - sort of yes.
"I don't want to be here anymore." - yes....
"No one understands me." - I don't understand me
"I can't take it anymore." - yes
"Things will never get better." - yes
"I'm tired of being a burden to my friends and family." -no
"No one would miss me if I were gone." - I know this is no but I can't help but think it.
Physical ChangesLosing or gaining weight quickly. - I am not hungry at all, which in my case is probably good.
Suddenly not caring about appearances or cleanliness.
Unexplained cuts, scrapes or bruises.
Appearing tired all the time. - I am having a lot of trouble getting out of bed.
Acting DifferentlyChanges in mood: more withdrawn, anxious or sad, or sudden mood lift after a down period. - Sad definitely
Changes in eating or sleeping habits.- Could sleep forever
Suddenly taking more risks: not taking prescribed medication, drunk driving, ignoring physical limitations, having unprotected sex, using more drugs or alcohol. - not right now
Loss of concentration.
Withdrawing from friends and family. - I want to withdraw
Losing interest in things that used to be enjoyed. - definitely
Not planning for the future. - I have never really done this.
Hurting oneself on purpose.
Thinking and talking about death a lot. - Yes
Unexplained good-byes or unusual personal expressions that have a sense of closure.
SituationsRecently having lost a loved one, relationship or job.- Well between Mom and Boots this year
Having money problems.- That is a constant
Having questions or worries about being gay, bisexual or transgender.
Previous suicide attempts.
Recent death of a loved one.
Problems in an important relationship.
Problems at work or school. - Work definitely
I just feel very hopeless and can't think of a way to change. I am not going to do anything, I am just very much down. Since I am at work, this is what I thought would help.