Monday, June 25, 2012

Is That My Stomach?

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For most of my life, I have told myself “I can’t have THAT! It is so ……” Even when I am not actively dieting, my eating behavior revolved around dieting practices. That constant guilt that I am bad if I eat that. I felt hungry all the time and I am sure it did not help that I totally obsessed about what I would eat next. Lunch at noon, even if I was not hungry. Fat free everything though your body needs fat. It was never ending.

Those days are over. I have had it.

I have started Phase 1 of eating intuitively. This involves:

Eating when hungry.

  • No more rules. If I am hungry and I want fried clam, I will have them. What? Doesn’t this go against everything you have been taught? No because look where I am on what I thought I was right. I am back to where I started.
  • Paying attention to my stomach.

Getting ride of the diet mentality.

  • No more counting points. No more saying no mayonnaise or only eating low fat ice cream.
  • No more guilt.

Ditching the scale

  • I have been mostly doing this but I learned that I can refuse to be weighed in at the doctors. This is huge. That number haunts me because even if I do not look, they give me a print out with it taunting me.

Now when those thoughts of dieting will not be easy to get rid of. I have been dieting for most of my life. I have been listening to my body for the last two days and for the most part, I have been eating when hungry though sometimes, especially at work, I can’t eat until I am starving. Still it is progress. For the next few days I am going to eat until I am satisfied and when I am hungry.  It has not been easy but it has been eye opening.

13 comments:

  1. This is a great journey you are embarking on to intuitive eating - it is hard but will definitely be worth it - good luck!

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  2. Really cool! It sounds like you are taking a completely different (and healthier) approach to eating. I'm really looking forward to hearing more about this as you continue on this path. Thanks for sharing your story.

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    1. Your welcome. I will share my journey with everyone.

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  3. This sounds like a really direct, healthy approach. I eat so many times when I'm NOT hungry. I don't even know when I'm really hungry any more, if that makes sense.

    Thank you for sharing your journey in this.

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    1. Your welcome :) I will be talking about this a lot.

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  4. A fried clam sounds awful but everything else sounds fantastic!

    Those 3 things (eat when hungry, get rid of diet mentality and no weighing) sound simple but when you think about the years of dieting indoctrination it's pretty difficult. Especially when the whole world, media and society is so concerned with thin being the only way to be healthy.

    It can never hurt to try something new if what you are doing is making you crazy.

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    1. Here in New England, fried clams are everywhere and I have to say, a favorite of mine.

      I had a little challenge tonight when I got home from work but tomorrow is another day. I made a healthy dinner and moved on from my little sidetrack.

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  5. It's all so challenging and I wish you all the best!

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  6. Food tastes so much better when you are really hungry. About the only time I get hungry is after a really long hike. This post made me realize that most of the time I eat for entertainment. It is a social thing in Iowa, and probably alot of other places, everything revolves around food and half the time I eat because it's there. I need to be more aware that I do that. Plus sometimes I eat because I want to have a meal with my husband and before that, it was to eat with my kids. I wonder if people will be offended if I don't eat when they do? And should I care? It is really challenging.

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    1. I don't think I actually tasted my food for so long. I was hungry but nothing seemed to satisfy me. I think people just want to spend time with us, eating or not.

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  7. I read your post right after reading this one (http://pacingthepanicroom.blogspot.com/2012/06/getting-stronger.html) on Pacing the Panic Room and thought there were a lot of similar thoughts in them. Funny how themes like intuitive eating tend to crop up in multiple places at the same time!

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    1. Thanks for pointing that out to me! It totally helps for me to see I am not alone. All sorts of people big and small struggle with the same issues. Thanks :)

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