Two posts in one day? What is the world coming to.
I went to get weighed in at Weight Watchers tonight and it will probably the last time I do it.
I gained 6.4 pounds, basically everything I lost, despite how active I have been. It was demoralizing and horrible. I could not help but feeling how much I suck and how much of a sham it is that I try to deny that my self esteem is based on that frigging number.
I try to tell myself that I will not put too much weight in that weight number. I lie. It is everything and it focuses me on how much of a failure I am.
How do I break this never ending cycle?
I am going to continue to be active and watch what I eat. It was recommended that I read this:
Life in Synergy offers some nutritional guidance as well and I might look into that.
I am such a mess tonight. I need to get lost in reading I think, to take my mind off of things.