Sunday, February 12, 2012

Depression and Control

I don’t know what to write about tonight. I was going to write about opening my eyes and seeing things that I just never paid attention to before because I was just in a fog or what and how I am noticing clothing, men, everything more often lately but I couldn’t find the pictures of what I wanted to express and my mind was just in a bit of a fog itself. My 5 Things will be put off this week because I can’t think of what I want. It is 0 things tonight.

Have you ever noticed, if you are depressed, that when you start to get one part of your life back to somewhat normal, the other parts start to fall apart more?

I start to eat a little healthier and everything else falls apart. I can only concentrate on one thing at a time. When did I lose control of things? Did I ever really control them to begin with?

My hold was tenuous at best. Things might have been in “order” to me but that was just a little string holding things together.

I think too much I think. I need to turn my brain off.

3 comments:

  1. Depression puts me in a fog too. It's hard, if not impossible, for all parts of life to be going along smoothly. Depression doesn't help, I know. Remember, you have a lot going on with your Mom. It's OK to focus on one thing at a time.

    You may feel like your hold was tenuous, but you learned things that will help you going forward. Perhaps all of us have only a tenuous hold.

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  2. Hi Jen. I'm sorry that things are difficult. Listen, I know exactly what you mean about turning your brain off... stopping the thoughts from blocking everything else. My last few posts have been about exactly that. I mention them because they might be useful to you. I hope so. We are all looking for a way out of depression and I'm sure you'll find it. Hugs, med

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  3. I'm sorry you are struggling right now. Sometimes just putting most of your energy and focus into what is right in front of you is exactly what you need to do to get through a hard situation. Take care of yourself.

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