Thursday, September 15, 2011

Wandering

Being alone is not bad, but it is not good either.

That sums up up my feeling of today.  My mind is a wanderer especially when I have a headache, which was ever present today. Then a conversation with a friend talked about dating and how I have been “off market”, not looking, not caring, not anything really. Then I said that I don’t know what I want. Which sums up my life in that regard. I will probably be an old lady with cats unless I find a fellow nerd to ramble on about what I have been reading lately.

I also met with the doctor that will probably be my surgeon. It went well. The office before hand was a little messed up. They lost my file. The doctor was not paged. I was sitting for 45 minutes before someone paged her. I did like the surgeon.

We went through my medication list and stopped when she saw my depression medications. I am going to have to talk to my medicine doctor about getting off of the Wellbutrin SR before the surgery and going to the non-SR version.  She said that weight loss surgery won’t help with those and I said that no, probably not. I have lost weight before and my depression was still my constant shadow, stalking me around corners. I am working on it though. I am a work in progress.

She agreed that December would be the best time. She said I should lose about 20 pounds prior to surgery. I think I am going to do South Beach. It may help a bit with what will come after the surgery.

I have a meeting with the hospice people at the nursing home tomorrow morning with Dad. I am not really looking forward to that. I know what they are going to say. It is hard to talk about.

I am so happy tomorrow is Friday. I will be collapsing on the couch when I get home work.

3 comments:

  1. waiting 45 minutes for the doctor, no matter the reason, sounds normal:)

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  2. Julie Stewart9/16/2011 3:17 PM

    Hang in there Jen. Been following you for awhile. Hope the meeting with Hospice goes well. I am my Dad's caregiver as he has CHF and has Hospice monitoring him. They are like part of the family now, don't know what I'd do without them. Know its hard, but let them help and give you some peace of mind. Hugs from Virginia!

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  3. Monitoring is essential when it comes to one's health. There needs to be proper attention.

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