It felt good to go to group tonight. The weather in Boston can be summed up by BLAH! and I needed it.
I let my group know about wish to be invisible. I went on to talk about it. Sometimes it is a lot easier to write about something thing then to actually talk about it. These eyes were staring back at me and all that was running through my head was “Am I a freak or something?”
They did not think I was freaky.
Last week at the meeting with the weight loss surgery psychiatrist, he said to me “You have to get over the attention thing to be successful.”
That struck at the core.
It grabs at striking down the unworthiness, the damaged goods feeling and the whole kit and caboodle, doesn’t it?
I have my work cut out for me but I am on my way.
I deserve to be healthy. Period.
Healthy mind. Healthy body. The two go together. One without the other is not healthy for me.