I did not make my support group tonight because I did not get out of my first appointment with a psychologist for weight loss surgery until it was too late. I was a little worried about the whole psychologist appointment because I always think I am a bit messed up.
I was supposed to meet with one doctor but met with another today and that was fine. I settled right in and answered all the questions truthfully. I may have spooked him a bit when I told him I did not want to see the number on the scale but I saw it anyway. *SIGH*
He asked why I was overweight, how, when, where of my being overweight. I went on about how I was harassed, Mom was not doing well, and well, food was there and even though I have been up and down and up and down like a roller coaster, I am ready. I want to be healthy. I do not want to be in Dad’s shoes at 62 and I am heading there.
I did a lot of talking. Once you get me started on a subject I care about, watch out. Supposedly everything I said about being invisible is common but he said I am going have to work on the attention thing. I am. I am working on it. That was a huge part of my failure in my previous attempts. It is kind of upside that I would be considered invisible at my weight now that I think about it, right?
He listened and asked questions. He explained the options and as of now, I am looking at either the sleeve or the bypass surgery.
I am totally ready. It is a tool like a ladder but you still have to climb up.
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