Maybe it was the weather or maybe a case of the Mondays. All I know was that my self esteem was in the toilet. I felt not good enough.
I was rejected by a blogging site because my blog would not appeal to parents. I don’t know about you, but just because you are a parents does not mean you do not suffer the same sort of feelings as I do. Mental illness effects all people in society. Rich, poor, fat, skinny, Moms, Dads, children, etc. I can certainly attest to my Mom’s problems with PPD and some sort of schizoaffective disorder. Just goes to show that most people do not understand.
I have a hard time dealing with rejection of any kind. It gives me an excuse to beat myself up. That is what happened today.
Part of me uses this excuse not to date. I don’t want to be rejected. I am ready to step out of my comfort zone. My comfort zone would keep me in bed all day. Not a way to live my life.
I had wanted to go for a walk after work tonight but it is pouring out and rather chilly. Oh summer in Boston, please come back. Walking makes me feel better but to get to feeling better, I have to sort through my mind, which I really needed today.
I caved and got HBO to watch Game of Thrones. I totally have an addictive personality. Totally.