I survived Irene! It was wicked windy. I was lonely. I read. That sums it up. How to Train Your Dragon gets two thumbs up from me (but I watched it Saturday night).
Dad lost power at noon on Sunday and didn’t get it back on until 6 pm tonight. I was a little bit concerned because he can not sleep without his C-Pap. He called the cops to see what he could do and they told him to go to the hospital. Grrr. Today he called the Mayor’s office of Weymouth and told them about it. There was a shelter he could of gone to at Weymouth High School. I had offered to get him but he didn’t think the power would be out so long.
I was a bit worried about the nursing home not having power. I thought they would have generators. Mom is fed now via a feeding tube and the machine runs on electricity. I think it has battery power but she is like constantly feeding. Once her breakfast feed is done, she gets her lunch one, then it is time for dinner. Would the batteries last that long of a feeding day? Questions….
I saw Mom on Saturday. It is so hard to sit with her for a half an hour. She won’t look at me. She doesn’t talk. She doesn’t seem to respond to when I hold her hand. I want my Mother back, not this zombie that she has become. I often wonder what is the point of keeping her on the cholesterol or heart medicines? Her brain is dying. Never mind that she is on anti-psychotics. She is not going to get up anymore. It is so hard. I feel guilty because I can’t stay any longer. My therapist suggested maybe I read to her. I don’t know what else to do. I will be a bad daughter if I don’t visit. It is just so hard. I leave crying most of the time.
My parents are 85% of my worries. I worry a lot about them.