Tuesday, August 30, 2011

The Crouton Does Not Lie

I have a little confession to make. It is not bad or anything, just a little bit of weirdness.

I look at pictures of food on blogs, television, in restaurants, anywhere and some of the pictures look weird. It doesn’t look like food should look. It is hard to describe. A just looks weird, unappetizing, not good, strange. This is new. I don’t know how to describe it. Even my finagled dinner tonight looked a little strange. I ate it though.

I see a picture of a salad with croutons and the croutons look strange and I am like, “That is a crouton?” It totally turns me off.

I used to look at pictures and it made me hungry. Is this progress? Or a step back? Neither?

Tomorrow is my first appointment in the process of weight loss surgery. I meet with a psychiatrist. I had said to my therapist that I was sort of afraid of not passing that test and she told me not to worry. I will let you know how it goes.

I talked to my health insurance company, Big Giant Health Insurance Conglomerate (BGHIC for short), was less than helpful in finding out my coverage. It covers “weight loss surgery” but did not specify what type. I may have to talk with someone in human resources to get more coverage information.  I hope BGHIC is not a problem.

2 comments:

  1. I hope its not a problem either! And I hope you pass the test. Sometimes I look at pictures of food on blogs too, but I confess it often looks really good to me. Usually this is when I'm of course watching what I eat and eating no junk food. But I wish you well and hope everything with your surgery works out the way you want it to.

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  2. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers for your appointment, Jen! It will all work out for the best. Even if the insurance coverage is less than optimal, doesn't mean it's not doable. That's interesting about food's looking to you. I'd keep a journal about it. Looking forward to hearing how things go.

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