Sunday, July 17, 2011

My Alone Mind

It is just me and Boots here. Some days I love it, today I hate it.

Loneliness permeates me today. I don’t know why. It is hot. I have killed yet another plant. Boots is hot and avoiding me.

Sometimes I think it would just be better if I had a roommate. Then I think of the time I lived with Secret Sister and I am happy to live alone.

I think I am ugly and nothing I do will change that.

When I am alone, my mind plays games with me. Why can’t my mind be like everyone else’s?

Will I ever be “cured”?

4 comments:

  1. Oh Jen. I do understand how you feel. I am on my own here too, and my mind does many many things in the silence. Recently I have come to befriend my mind a little bit more. Little steps. I am thinking of you x P

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  2. Hopefully just getting these words out will help a bit.

    On a lesser note, where did you get your plant? Home Depot and Lowe's (and others) offer a guarantee to replace a plant if it dies within a year of purchase. If you don't have the receipt but paid with a credit/debit card, they might be able to find you in the system. We lost all of our plants to the desert heat, but we got some money back from Lowe's by returning the fruit trees and tomato plant. There was nothing left of the herbs to return. They say you'll get a replacement, but they just gave us credit back to our card.

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  3. One of the worst days of living alone for me was when I killed a plant. I totally get it. I'm sorry.

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  4. Hey Jen,
    I think you are very wrng when you say you are ugly. I have seen your pic of when you started blogging 3 years back and you were really cute. Though you gained lot of weight in 3 years, am sure all that can be shed with some determination and you will be back to being that attractive woman you were

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