Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Out from Under the Carpet

 

 

“You talked about too much on here.”

I hear that a lot.

“Aren’t you afraid people will find out?”

Is a question I am asked when I eventually explain what I blog about. 

No. I am not afraid.

I am Jennifer, 37 years old and I have had depression and anxiety for most of the last 30 years or so. It is true. I can’t hid it. I have a hard time controlling my thoughts of hopelessness and ruminating over past problems. I may laugh but often, inside, I am worried, sad, confused, angry, beaten down and just tired.

Try as I might, sometimes that cloud of depression is hard to dissipate.

Writing about it helps. I am “normal”. I am just another subway commuter you may see reading on the train or shopping in the supermarket. I am not a murderer or a criminal. I have a disease  that many people, who do not know me, won’t see.

I am not ashamed of it. I am not afraid to write about it. I write about the good, the bad and everything in between. Mental health is an integral part of any body. Problems need to be treated like any other disease and not swept under the carpet. There is nothing to be ashamed of. I am just an average 37 year old. I have an apartment, a cat, a job, a car and depression.

I’m Blogging for Mental Health 2011.

7 comments:

  1. Wanting to be as mentally healthy as possible is just as important as wanting to be physically healthy. What level any person can obtain is different.

    Thank you for talking about it.

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  2. Well said Jen! No need to be ashamed.

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  3. I completely agree with this! It's amazing how much writing can help, especially blogging. It makes me very grateful to have the internet!

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  4. Jen - It was so awesome to get to hang out with you today at SheCon. You truly are an amazing woman!!!
    Got ya bookmarked girlie. :o)

    I linked ya up to my personal blog here BTW. From there, you can find me on FB and Twitter. I gave you all the business info at the Expo.

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  5. I am so glad I met you at #SheCon, and I am proud of you for speaking our and sharing your heart. Helping to normalize depression and anxiety, and being brave for those who have not yet found their voice. You are lovely and well spoken in person, and I am thrilled to know you. Really. *HUG*

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  6. Do what feels right to YOU. I admire and respect your honesty. Thank for commenting on my #medicalmovies : D

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