I went to a Super Bowl party yesterday with Secret Sister. I really just wanted to watch the game, the commercials and just have a decent time without the pressure. Secret Sister kept putting on pressure. She kept telling me that I wasn’t talking enough, even though she was talking to a bunch of other people and not me. She kept harping on it over and over. I said that why don’t you talk to me?
I really just wanted to watch the game. That is why I should have stayed home. Can’t a girl watch football in peace?
What I wanted to talk about, she didn’t want to. I tried to talk about why I loved the Chrysler commercial and how it was my favorite. She wanted none of that. She was not letting up on the harassing me that I ended up leaving and walking home. I didn’t want to call a cab. I just felt like walking. Sometimes she drives me a little crazy.I love her but I am not like her and my father. Sometimes I just don’t want to talk!
Besides, the guys who were sitting around me in the bar were getting the wrong idea about me when I did talk to them. I am not like that. I just want to watch the game! No, I am not interested your after game activities. Gah! Is it something I do?
Tonight, on my walk home from the subway, my mind was aflutter with thoughts. I have been struggling lately in the self esteem and hopelessness. I sort of feel trapped in Groundhog Day, only it is a different day everyday. Go to work, come home, sleep, etc., most days. It struck me that I have very little hope for the future.
I know that this might be the my depression rearing its ugly head. After all, one of the major symptoms of depression is hopelessness and pessimism. I was thinking that this will be my life for the next forty years. Work for the big company and come home to an empty apartment and my cats until I am 80. The thought depresses me greatly. I honestly think that this is what my life will be. As if a relapse was not totally recognizable in my life lately, this is one big red stop sign. Changing my thinking is hard. I want to have hope but I am tired of being hurt.
I did some good stuff over the weekend and I have a giveaway for you all.
On Saturday night, I had the opportunity to try Green Giant Broccoli & Cheese Sauce. This is something I would normally not buy so it was a little treat that I had with dinner.
Since I cook just for myself, when it comes to vegetables, I tend to use an old Tupperware steamer that was given to me a while ago and just steam some broccoli or lately, roast Brussels sprouts, my new addiction, with whatever I was baking. This was very easy to cook. Just put it in the microwave for a few minutes and you’ve got some broccoli with cheese sauce.
I served it with skinless, boneless chicken thighs baked with some Mango Chipotle BBQ sauce from Hannaford’s. The sauce was very good with the baked chicken.
The sauce with the broccoli was good as I love cheese sauce. It is something I would buy again as a treat. The problem was that it was so good that I ate both of the servings in the box. Oops.
Thanks to Green Giant and MyBlogSpark have given me this set to give to one of my readers. I like the insulated tote for frozen stuff from the grocery store and the bowl is a great size. Not to big or small and with the spoon is cute, in my opinion.
If you’d like to win, just leave a comment with your favorite vegetable and I’ll pick a winner on Friday, Unfortunately, this is only good for my readers in the USA. Sorry, I love all of you though.
I am off to do my taxes. I hope I get a refund!