In therapy this morning, I realized that maybe my downward spiral went a little further downward then I thought. I talked about how I was using credit cards more then usual and how I had forgotten to pay a bill or two then said that I have been somewhat less then diligent on cleaning my apartment. She pointed out how it is all related and that she did not realize that my depression was that bad.
I hadn't really thought about it either then it made sense. I had been spiraling down on that slippery slope and as that was getting out of control, other areas of my life were also suffering.
I try to be honest with myself here. If I use this blog as a tool to help, then I do realize that I was fooling myself a bit. Now that I have gotten that in control, I need to get the rest of my out of control life back in order.
Tomorrow, I am volunteering for Harpoon Helps. It is a great event where you help decorate the city for the holidays and then Harpoon rewards you with some beer. After that I am cleaning.
I get paid on Tuesday, so I am going to also write out all of my bills. The Consumerist blog offered a consumer budget spreadsheet this week that I am going to work on this weekend. I need to get a handle on this too.
My eating is under control though this morning, I did not eat breakfast. I had a chicken and cranberry salad sandwich for lunch with baked chips. I was starved by then. I had a project that needed to be completed at work ASAP and I neglected to eat. I will be stepping on the scale for the first time in 2 weeks tomorrow morning. I am hoping to see something good.