I have been feeling fairly ugly lately. I am disgusted by my weight. I am disgusted by this disgusting piece of vitriol put out by Marie Claire. If you haven't read about it on various blogs, I linked to the article, Should Fatties Get A Room?, which basically says that overweight people shouldn't be on TV and they should not have any sort of love interest because the author is too disgusted by it because of the TV program, Mike and Molly.
All of this and my looking in the mirror and seeing nothing but unlovable ugliness and I am slipping back into the shadow's realm. It sucks. My weight is wicked high. My self esteem is wicked low. I just want to curl up in the bed and hibernate. I can't do this to myself again.
I am going to take one day at a time and find a Weight Watchers meeting again. There has to be a leader in the Boston area I will like. I have get control of my mind. Maybe it is time to think about adjusting things a bit. I don't know. It is the time of year where the trees lose their leaves and my mood plummets.
My birthday is in 2 days too. I can't believe another year has gone by and I am stuck on the same path. I have signed up to go to a grad school open house at Boston University's Metropolitan College in the Urban Planning program.
At last tomorrow, all the political mail, sign holders, TV commercials, smear campaigns, lies, etc will be over. Don't forget to vote! Hopefully, some of people and issues I voted for will win.
I heard this and loved it. It spoke to my mind tonight and I wanted to share it with you.