Thursday, October 21, 2010

National Love Your Body Day

I am a day late and a dollar short with this because when I got home from work last night, I discovered that my Internet at home was out. As of this morning it was still out.  I checked the telephone cord for telltale signs of bite marks and I found a few though not clear through the cord. So today I am going to get another very long telephone cord and hope it fixes it. He is lucky he is cute and furry because his taste for cords is not good.

Yesterday was National Love Your Body Day. They asked "Do you love what you see when you look in the mirror?"  Honestly, yesterday I tried. I did. I tried keeping that side of me down but I failed for part of the day. I tried thinking of things I liked but they were all internal personality stuff or backhanded like I have good eyes but my face is ugly type of thoughts.

I am not sure where this came from. I was feeling relatively OK mood wise. I had a bad headache, the first in a while, and maybe that started it. When I don't feel good, my mind sort of follows.

I tried telling myself to stop it. I tried to stop the hate. Yes, I said hate, the opposite of love.It wasn't until I got home from work and decided that I was going to try to get into the 6:45 Zumba class at the gym that it started to disappear.

I survived my first Zumba class without having a heart attack or falling over myself. I wish I had inherited some of the Latin influences from my Mom but no, the only Italian part that came through was my talking with my hands. I was confused a lot of time but moved as best I could to the dancing. I completed it though and that made me feel a bit better.

I came home, worked on my knitting project and watched a PBS Independent Lens program about parking lot attendants in Charlottesville, VA  (very good!) since the Internet was out and felt good. My hair was a wet mess after I got home and I was beet red from the exercise (I get that way after all exercise) but I was more forgiving of myself after Zumba. 

My loving my body is a work in progress.

4 comments:

  1. It takes some time to thoroughly love ourselves in that way... but taking steps to create a positive body image with exercise means you are well on your way... and your efforts will soon be rewarded.

    When I started doing Bikram yoga about a year ago, I wasn't feeling entirely too happy with myself either. I decided it might be nice to voluntarily sit in a class heated to 110 degrees and sweat my toxins out. Miraculously, I survived my first class and I wanted nothing more than to do it again. After trying it for several months, I began to notice the muscle definition in my body and friends even commented on it and THAT was the greatest feeling in the world. I started to FEEL better and I began to exude a confidence I had simply never had before.

    You are doing a wonderful job. I've never taken a Zumba class but have several friends who swear by it and I'd like to give it a shot at some point. The hard part is motivating to get there--and you already mastered that part :)

    Found you via SITS (blog forum) today. It's always nice to meet fellow single gals and I'm glad to have stopped in this morning. Hope you have a wonderful weekend.

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  2. Dang, I'm bummed to miss Love Your Body Day...

    Nice to meet you last night, Jen!

    ~rob

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  3. Ahh, Zumba. I went to one class at my gym...but only one. I guess I just wasn't built to move that way, because I sure couldn't do the stuff that all those other girls did! :) I know from experience that it takes a lot of time and effort to start to see yourself in a more positive light, and it never gets easy but it does get *easier* (if that makes sense). Don't worry, you *will* get there!

    Also, what kind of cord chewer do you have? Mine are bunnies. Well, only one bun...but he's done enough damage for the one without front teeth too! Nearly $300 of cords, we have an exercise pen up around the tv/game systems now to keep him out!!

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  4. I have 3 year old tuxedo cord chewing cat named Boots only in this case, he did not chew the cord!

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