Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Sleep

I am finding out just how important sleep is in my life. Lately, I have been:

  • Sleeping through 3 alarms, even on the weekends
  • Waking up later and later for work. This morning, I woke up at 8:30. I have to be to work by 9.
  • Drinking a lot of coffee, like 4 or more cups a day
  • Having moments of extreme snippiness then crying as if I’ve been dumped. I liken it to a tired toddler.
  • I eat more.

I have come to point where I must tell my brother that I can’t pick him up any more. I have been picking him up at the train station since Dad had the stroke/aneurysm. He works 3-11 and lately, he hasn’t been getting off the train until 12:45. This means by the time I drop him off at his apartment, then get home and to bed, it is around 1:30 and falling asleep, maybe 2.

I am supposed to be up for work at 6. I can’t do it. It is affecting my life too much. I hate to do this to him. I know that I have been a bit too close and involved/wrapped up in my family. It is a problem and a major source of anxiety in my life.

My number one goal this week is to SLEEP and talk to my brother.

My number 2 goal is to journal. I need to journal again. I need to have a good ass kicking for lack of journaling.

3 comments:

  1. I feel soooo much better and get so much done not only with enough sleep, but sleeping at the right time. 10-6 or 11-7 makes me feel so much better than if I stay up really late and still get 8 hours. It really does matter, I'm not making this up. ;) Good luck to you and I hope you start to change your habits as soon as you can!

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  2. It's hard when you feel that your family is relying on you, but sometimes we need to put ourselves first. It's a pain that sleep (or lack of) can affect every little aspect of our lives. I think you've made the right decision though, and I hope your brother will accept it
    xx Bec

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  3. Oh Jen, I am so sorry. I wish I had some words of wisdom. I do know this. If you don't take care of you and your own, then you cannot take care of anyone else. I have had to learn that lesson at the expense of my own health, wellness/welfare.

    Please, make sure you take care of yourself. I know it's tough, but you have to make the time to refresh your spirit.

    Many thoughts your way.

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