I was having an awesome Sunday until a few minutes ago. I went to the SOWA Markets today in Boston’s South End. It was a sunny warm day in Boston and the perfect day to roam around. I bought a peacock headband. It has blue and green feathers and everyone was gushing over it in my hair so I went for it. I also got a necklace and a loaf of When Pig’s Fly Apricot, raisin and almond bread – very very good! I got to spend time with my friends and enjoyed it.
I get home to do some laundry and I see that at the party last night some photos were taken of me and I was tagged. They are not flattering at all. I am 100% disgusted by them. I hate how I look. Pure ugliness. I went from cheerful and happy to blah in 5 minutes. I would have ignored the tagging but I looked at my wall and I saw them. Blah. I could go on and on about how horrible I like etc but I have decided that I could totally spiral out of control and it would begin the slippery slope to low self-esteem-ville and it is place I have spent far too much time in and it is not productive. I am slipping there though and it is so hard to get these thoughts out of my head. The picture was taking looking up at me and my hair was in a clip and it was not in any way, shape or form flattering. Ugh.
I think I need to knit or read or something to get my mind off of it. Instead of eating, I poured myself a glass of wine. Turning to alcohol over food is not healthy either. Here’s to a better tomorrow. I plan on walking to Wollaston Beach tomorrow after work and bringing my lunch so I can save some money.
Less then 2 weeks to go until Louisville!