Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I have had a profile on Match for a few days and have yet to wink or write anyone. It brings up all of the old insecurities. Up until tonight that is. I really have to get over this fear of rejection. Tonight, I winked at few profiles. Tomorrow, I will probably do the same. I just have to do it. If they don't respond then oh well. I don't really understand okCupid but it is free. I am not sure why in the back of mind I think I am not good enough for someone. I am a good catch. Rich is missing out. I am funny, smart, not too bad looking, friendly... Sometimes I just can't get rid of the ugly thinking. Maybe I should just ask someone out. That would really be progress! The jack hammering at work was non-stop until about 3 pm today. I have a horrible headache. I think that partially causes my thinking. When I don't feel good physically, my mind sometimes follows. Today was a bad eating day. I had a training class this morning and was running late getting there and there were muffins, etc and I caved out of hunger. I had a ham and cheese sandwich with a small bag of Lays chips and a banana for lunch. I had a bagel and cream cheese for dinner. Tomorrow will be better, I promise!