Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Is it the weekend yet?

I have been an emotional mess for the last day or so, starting last night. I have left a message on R's voice mail on Saturday night, Sunday night and last night. He has yet to call me back.
I admit I was a bit emotional this weekend. I did not take Mom's accident well. It really upset me. I hate to see her like that and I hate to witness the dementia's destruction of her body. It makes me sad and depressed. On top of that, I was having massive period cramps. I was in a lot of pain, had a bad headache and was felt like I was being ignored. I let my redheaded snarkiness go for a while, which I felt horrible about the next day. I apologized to him. When I left on Saturday, it seemed normal. He said he would call later and gave me a kiss.
My mind is going in 10 different directions including thinking the worst about the relationship and me. What am I supposed to think? I think most women would probably think the same thing. We have been dating for over a year. I think I deserve a call back.
So, let's just say I had to stop myself from crying in my cubicle today at work. I really had to restrain myself from calling him again this afternoon. I don't understand why he would ignore my phone calls.
I haven't really wanted to eat today, which is a plus, I guess.
I also went to the gym to try to get my mind off of it. I climbed the Petronis Tower on the StairMaster and did 15 minutes on a bike. It took me about a half an hour to complete the Patronis Tower.
I decided to switch up breakfast. I had 2 of Van's multi grain waffles with Teddie brand peanut butter and the bitter jelly.
Lunch was a ham and cheese pita sandwich with mustard and left over mashed butternut squash from Thanksgiving. It was good. I did not eat the apple though.
I found Stoneyfield Farm's Pumpkin Pie Yogurt yesterday in Whole Foods so I bought 4 of them and had 1 for snack today. I was underwhelmed. It was orange and had a slight pumpkin pie taste but could have used some pumpkin pie spice.
I made the chick broth, spinach, garlic macaroni thing again tonight but add a cut up boneless skinless chicken thigh. It was good.

1 comment:

  1. Sorry to hear you had a rough Thanksgiving and week. Sending good thoughts your way. I am sure you will get a call back from R.


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