Tonight, I want to Hannaford's in search of some of the fixings for dinner on Thursday. I got everything, plus my regular stuff, besides the main ingredient, turkey. I do not want to go near a store in the next few days so after I dropped my food off at home, I went to Stop & Shop and snagged a 13 lb bird.
Today, I feel a lot better. I got that day of self loathing behind me and moved on. I feel that when I do something wrong, it triggers it. Why am I so hard on myself? I can't stand it. I try so hard then my own firewall falls down. I must work on this.
My food today:
Pumpkin oatmeal for breakfast. I finished about 2/3 of it.
I roamed around Whole Foods at lunch and NOTHING appealed to me until I saw the sushi. So after a bit more roaming, I decided on yogurt. I could only eat about 2/3s of the yogurt.
Since I was running around Quincy grocery stores, I was starving when I got home so, I sauteed some peppers and onions in canola oil, added some hot capicola ham (which I had to get at the store) with eggs, cheese and two pieces of toast on the side.
I had a LeClerc bar, a banana and a non-fat caramel latte in between lunch and dinner.
I have no idea what to get R for Christmas. He has a lot of power tools. I got him a MP3 player for his birthday. He got me nothing. He is off this weekend so I hope that we can spend some time alone doing something nice. I haven't really seen him a lot lately. I miss him.
Actually, I have total gift giving fear. Will they like it? Will they hate it? Luckily, my family is small so I don't have a lot of gifts to buy this year.
What to get Mom is a question too. She is in a nursing home and her needs are taken care of mostly.