Wednesday, October 28, 2009
A blah day
Today is a very gray, cold, windy and gloomy day here in Boston. It sort of fits my mood to a tee. I feel very blah today. I feel ugly and worthless. I wish I could stay under the covers all day. Maybe it is PMS or my doctor's appointment earlier today or just the wackiness of work all of a sudden. If you live in the Boston area and follow the local news, the building where the shooting and stabbing were yesterday was one of the buildings I manage. I had my annual gyn appointment today. I have been taken off BCPs and will need an ultrasound to see if fibroids have returned. I had a myomectomy nine years ago and there was always a chance they could return. We will also explore the Mirena IUD, Depo-provera or the mini-pill. I don't know what to do. I need to do my research depending on what the ultrasound says. I haven't felt this way in a while. I don't want to look in the mirror. I don't like what I see. This time of year is also depressing. The trees are losing their leaves and are starting to look naked. The combination of things have hit me hard. Luckily, my therapy appointment and I will definitely need to talk.