Friday, April 17, 2009
So, it has been a tough few days emotionally with has equalled bad eating for me. Not so much bad, as quantity IE half a bag of cookies or lots of ice cream. I had trouble buckling up my pants this morning. So...... Off to Weight Watchers I go this weekend or at least sign up for online since meetings don't do much for me. Ugh, I have struggled with my weight all my life. From being called fat, when I really wasn't, at 8 to hitting 300 lbs at 25. It has been an up and down roller coaster and I want to get off. I understand that after so much stress, I find comfort in food. Yes, I said it. Food is comforting. When R can't be there, food can. It doesn't judge. It does, however, make me judge myself. Trying get my jeans on this morning, I was certainly saying "How could I," "I am such a pig." etc. I acknowledge that I turn to food when there is no one to turn to. Tonight, I am getting together with my friend, C. That makes me happy!