Friday, January 23, 2009
Fire and Calm
Well, there was a fire at work this week. It was a small electrical fire and did not cause much damage except that half of the building was without power. Since I manage the building, it was a hectic day. By the time I got home from work on Wednesday and Thursday night, I was so tired that I could barely keep awake for LOST, which I have been waiting months for. I have been looking at the old photographs that I got from Mom's everything we have ever given her drawer. I find it interesting to see how I changed over the years. I start out looking cute then by high school, I am so bloated that you would not recognize me. It has me thinking of the past again, which I need to avoid. I can not change the past. It has made me stronger. I have to repeat that to myself over and over again. Yes, my family was dysfunctional. My Mom had a hoarding problem and Dad was a zombie. I locked myself in my room outside of school for 4 years. It made me stronger. I am really starting to believe it. I am tough. I do get depressed but I realized I needed help. I try to keep everyone together. My past had made me what I am today. I still look at the those pictures and wish that it could have been different.