Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Make a mistake Beat myself up Lather Rinse Repeat Why does this pattern always happen? I had a good day at work yesterday. I got a raise and bonus, more than I was expecting. R put an offer in on a house and it was accepted. Then I borrowed my Dad's car and scratched it. I felt sick to my stomach. I wanted to curl up and hide. I said I suck to myself so many times, etc. Why? Why is my reaction to berate myself? I have really consciously been not beating myself up but yet, I was lauded at work earlier. I am so tired of it and I seem to lose the battle sometimes.