Wednesday, October 22, 2008
So, it is Rich's birthday on Monday. I asked him what he was doing and he said usually goes to dinner to family but he would let me know. I think it would be a big step and a good thing if he invites me to go. I am thinking of what to get him. I have such a hard time thinking of and buying gifts. Waking up in the mornings lately has been hard. I have been waking up close to 7 am, which makes me late for work. I just don't want to get up. I need to think of some things that might prompt me to get my ass up. Someone suggested moving the alarm clock. It is an idea. I used to be up at 5:30 for work. I am feeling better in general. I have a psych appointment on Friday and I was told to ask him about my meds and the problem with my liver. I have been standing in front of the mirror and scrutinizing myself. I am not thinking of flaws really, just looking, sort of studying myself. I don't know what I am looking for. Sometimes I think that I can't really be almost 35. Maybe I coming to terms with my body.