Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Why is it when I have a headache, I automatically think bad things? This morning, I woke up, showered and did my normal thing. I could not find a thing to wear. Nothing. I ended up wearing jeans and a nice shirt but none of my pants from last winter looked good. I hate it. I kept thinking how much of a failure I am, how stupid, etc.... I try so hard to get these thoughts out of my head. I just want to be 100% healthy in mind and body. I just feel so blah today. My head hurts and my spirit is low. I also was thinking of the past. I have spent so much time ruminating over the past, that I have wasted present time. I can't change the history, why don't I let it go? The mind is a strange strange thing. I have my knitting group tonight so it will calm me down, hopefully. I will be seeing Rich after he gets off of work. I am excited about that. I have found another show to be addicted to, Fringe. Dad asked for another favor. Before next Thursday, I would like to: 1. Exercise at least 3 times 2. Have no negative self talk.