Sunday, July 13, 2008
Where do weekends go?
Really, another weekend gone! This one was a busy one. I had a good friend's baby shower yesterday and brunch with a brunch group today. I am really looking forward to relaxing after I write this. So, I must get my self to Weight Watchers tomorrow. It's been a while and I will start as a newbie all over again. I have lost over 100 pounds and for the most part kept it off but it is really an on again, off again thing. Something I have struggled with forever and probably will struggle with forever. Sometimes I wonder why did I have to have this problem? Can't I be like my friends and not worry about what I eat? Unfortunately, no. Fat was my protector. It kept me safe from roving hands and eyes. I was not noticed. Now that the weight is gone, the hands are roving and the eyes are on me. I find it uncomfortable. I have no clue how to deal with attention and even more clueless on what the right attention is. Maybe that is why I can't seem to get into a relationship with anyone. I am not ugly. I am smart, friendly, have a good heart and really, an all around good catch. No one seems to notice though and I am afraid of rejection. Everyone I know is coupled and meeting single men eludes me. I am not sure how to begin. I am on match (here is my profile: http://www.match.com/profile/showprofile.aspx?ortp=1&TP=U&uid=23Ashr6XD2uK4HRsflquGQ%3d%3d&lid=21 ) but it has not attracted much attention. I should really just wink at random people and hope they respond. The whole thing baffles me.