Saturday, July 12, 2008
After a week away,
I am home. I was in Chicago for a week getting trained on MRI, a software we will use at work to keep track of our leases. Chicago is a neat city and I could see myself living there. We went to listen to jazz, had great Italian food and I met a few cool friends while I will in Chicago. I hope to go back there someday to explore, without working. I have been doing some thinking on blaming others. I need to take responsibility for my life. The past is in the past and the actions of the ones I love in the past, can not be changed and dwelling on it will do nothing to change it. I would not be the same person I am today, if I did not go through what I went through. It is in the past and part of me but as of today, I must move past it. I have spent enough time thinking that maybe, if Dad got me help when I was 11, I wouldn't have.... or if Mom acted like she cared when I was a teen, I wouldn't have.... I am responsible for my life. I make the decisions and choose what to do. I have overcome a lot but I need to take responsibility for my own actions. I feel this is a huge step for me. Dwelling on the past has taken a lot of my energy and now, while acknowledging the past, I will be thinking on the future.